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Far from perfect...
Is where I'll always be.
So I really have started updating the other blog fairly often, if you haven't been, check it out please.
Thanks!
http://jonfurniss.wordpress.com
Thanks!
http://jonfurniss.wordpress.com
see, like... i like it to be warm, and i love the spring.
but all this fifty-something degree weather in january is not flying, because i'm starting to get comfortable, i'm thinking, hey, maybe i'll wear shorts today.
but then tomorrow, or the day after it's going to be cold again, and there will be snow, and everyone knows it's a bad idea to make snow angels in shorts...
and if we actually skipped a few months when i wasn't looking and it's april now that's not cool either.
if we skipped my birthday i'll be more upset than i've been about skipping a few months including my birthday ever before.
or something like that.
and that is what we call rambling without capitalization.
also, some day in the next few days i might possibly try to start updating my other blog again, and see how that works out.
but all this fifty-something degree weather in january is not flying, because i'm starting to get comfortable, i'm thinking, hey, maybe i'll wear shorts today.
but then tomorrow, or the day after it's going to be cold again, and there will be snow, and everyone knows it's a bad idea to make snow angels in shorts...
and if we actually skipped a few months when i wasn't looking and it's april now that's not cool either.
if we skipped my birthday i'll be more upset than i've been about skipping a few months including my birthday ever before.
or something like that.
and that is what we call rambling without capitalization.
also, some day in the next few days i might possibly try to start updating my other blog again, and see how that works out.
2008, by the way
Who wants to be in Providence Rhode Island with me from March 7-9?
Give me a call, text, IM or whatever.
Give me a call, text, IM or whatever.
So I had a whole bunch of weird dreams last night, which is unusual because I don't usually have dreams.
So in one I met this girl who's parents ran some sort of commune/retreat or something and they got really pissed off that she wanted to date me because she wasn't supposed to date people. So that was fun.
Then in another I went to someone from my high schools house and there was some other girl who I had gone to high school with, and we ended up spooning for a while, and that was fun. If you want to know whether or not it was your house or you who got spooned feel free to ask.
In another one some girl tried to convince me to start playing Everquest 2... I think? I don't really know.
Then in another one, I was questing in real life (for those who don't know, questing is when you go kill shit on World of Warcraft, or other MMOs for that matter, for random people who give you gold). And there were these gold farmers (who were not chinese though) and they had a Jeep with a machine gun on it, so I drove around with them for a while.
There might have been another one but I don't know, and I think I smell bad, so I'm going to go shower now.
Thanks for listening, byeee.
So in one I met this girl who's parents ran some sort of commune/retreat or something and they got really pissed off that she wanted to date me because she wasn't supposed to date people. So that was fun.
Then in another I went to someone from my high schools house and there was some other girl who I had gone to high school with, and we ended up spooning for a while, and that was fun. If you want to know whether or not it was your house or you who got spooned feel free to ask.
In another one some girl tried to convince me to start playing Everquest 2... I think? I don't really know.
Then in another one, I was questing in real life (for those who don't know, questing is when you go kill shit on World of Warcraft, or other MMOs for that matter, for random people who give you gold). And there were these gold farmers (who were not chinese though) and they had a Jeep with a machine gun on it, so I drove around with them for a while.
There might have been another one but I don't know, and I think I smell bad, so I'm going to go shower now.
Thanks for listening, byeee.
And so I've been negligent of just about everything, with this and that, and everything out of control. So I'm sorry for that.
Here's a new poem:
And for the first time, and more than somewhat creepily, you can hear me read my own poetry, so go listen to me as you read to yourself.
click it one time
"dream girl"
perhaps my life is fucked up
and i'm incredibly lonely for no good reason
and i get myself worked up about any time
that i had the chance to talk to a female
and a whole scenario runs through my head
about how i got into trouble
for falling in love with my best friend's
girlfriend's sister
who, like any other girl i've ever been interested in,
already has a boyfriend,
who, of course, i don't even know.
but when i met her she said my shirt was "bitchin"
and at that moment i wanted to talk to her for hours
because i was wearing a hooded sweatshirt that said "meh"
i was, ironically, advertising apathy,
i put in the effort to buy the shirt to show that i care about not caring
and she said it was "bitchin"
and i wanted to take her away with me for a while
perhaps we could fall in love for a while,
i haven't done that in a while,
at least twice throughout the night i made her smile,
but it wasn't all worthwhile,
i'm a hopeless child, lost for miles,
i cannot pass my trials.
i want love like christmas
that excitement about presents,
except now it's your presence,
and you taste just like christmas,
like that pepperment mocha something
from starbuck's.
and i better get paid for this product placement
if i ever get famous
because now everyone who hears this
who's never tried that drink or ever wondered what christmas tastes like
will have to try it, and i will have singlehandedly brought in millions of
new starbucks customers who love the taste of christmas.
and when i see my love i'll smile,
but it will be a christmas light smile,
that fantastic glow that goes to show that you know
something that everyone else desires.
but yet i'm lonely
without you, or anyone by myside
perhaps my standards are too high
for here's my idea of the perfect woman
she must be beautiful and sensual
she has a perfect body and intelligence
she loves video games, science fiction and me
her hair is most likely dark, but it doesn't really have to be
her eyes are so deep i would drown if i didn't know how to swim
and treading water has never been so fun before.
and it's beautiful the feeling she'd make me want to make her feel
it's like i miss you when im with you because im afraid that we'll be apart sometimes
and we'll have to move in together
you can decorate if you like,
just as long as you let me keep my pirate flag on the wall somewhere.
and there will be times when we fight:
you'll probably be a sony girl
and you'll inevitably argue with me saying your playstation three
is so much better than my xbox,
and then blu ray will eventually win this format war
and you'll laugh in my face
and i'll kiss in yours.
and we will live happily ever after,
much as this poem evolved from fantasy to reality and back to fantasy.
Here's a new poem:
And for the first time, and more than somewhat creepily, you can hear me read my own poetry, so go listen to me as you read to yourself.
click it one time
"dream girl"
perhaps my life is fucked up
and i'm incredibly lonely for no good reason
and i get myself worked up about any time
that i had the chance to talk to a female
and a whole scenario runs through my head
about how i got into trouble
for falling in love with my best friend's
girlfriend's sister
who, like any other girl i've ever been interested in,
already has a boyfriend,
who, of course, i don't even know.
but when i met her she said my shirt was "bitchin"
and at that moment i wanted to talk to her for hours
because i was wearing a hooded sweatshirt that said "meh"
i was, ironically, advertising apathy,
i put in the effort to buy the shirt to show that i care about not caring
and she said it was "bitchin"
and i wanted to take her away with me for a while
perhaps we could fall in love for a while,
i haven't done that in a while,
at least twice throughout the night i made her smile,
but it wasn't all worthwhile,
i'm a hopeless child, lost for miles,
i cannot pass my trials.
i want love like christmas
that excitement about presents,
except now it's your presence,
and you taste just like christmas,
like that pepperment mocha something
from starbuck's.
and i better get paid for this product placement
if i ever get famous
because now everyone who hears this
who's never tried that drink or ever wondered what christmas tastes like
will have to try it, and i will have singlehandedly brought in millions of
new starbucks customers who love the taste of christmas.
and when i see my love i'll smile,
but it will be a christmas light smile,
that fantastic glow that goes to show that you know
something that everyone else desires.
but yet i'm lonely
without you, or anyone by myside
perhaps my standards are too high
for here's my idea of the perfect woman
she must be beautiful and sensual
she has a perfect body and intelligence
she loves video games, science fiction and me
her hair is most likely dark, but it doesn't really have to be
her eyes are so deep i would drown if i didn't know how to swim
and treading water has never been so fun before.
and it's beautiful the feeling she'd make me want to make her feel
it's like i miss you when im with you because im afraid that we'll be apart sometimes
and we'll have to move in together
you can decorate if you like,
just as long as you let me keep my pirate flag on the wall somewhere.
and there will be times when we fight:
you'll probably be a sony girl
and you'll inevitably argue with me saying your playstation three
is so much better than my xbox,
and then blu ray will eventually win this format war
and you'll laugh in my face
and i'll kiss in yours.
and we will live happily ever after,
much as this poem evolved from fantasy to reality and back to fantasy.
So, tomorrow is Halloween. For many people that is very exciting, for me, it never really was. I've only been trick-or-treating once, I think, when I was about four. I was a clown I believe. But any way, for every year after that my family would get together with a couple other anti-Halloween families and eat candy and watch movies and ignore the doorbell. So yeah, I guess because of that deprivation in my childhood I never really got into the dressing up and such. Not that I got invited to go to any Halloween parties or to go trick-or-treating with anyone, but hey, whatever.
So the fact that it's Halloween means that October is at end.
For anyone who was curious I managed to complete my goals for the month. I didn't eat fast food, I payed off my credit cards, and I did not spend any money on electronics. Because of the amount of credit cards that I had to pay off I still have not much in my bank account, but I get paid on Friday, so hopefully that will change. =)
Also for those of you who wondered, I did my speech on the mental benefits of doing crossword puzzles, so I guess Ryan won because his ideas inspired me to that topic.
Right.
So my goals for November are these:
1) Make a budget and start living by it.
2) Get all of my Christmas shopping done.
3) Go to the gym three days a week. (As of today I am officially a member of Bally's)
4) Write one blog entry a day on my new blog
Now I don't want anyone to get upset that I'm leaving you all here on Livejournal and making it more difficult to read my blog. I know I won't be showing up on your friends page and you'll have to click a whole new link and stuff, but you'll survive. The reasons I am going to wordpress is that it has better interface, design, and all that stuff. And it's more mature, professional, and adultish (maybe I shouldn't be going there if I say "adultish"). But anyway... yeah. I might still log on here from time to time when I feel like writing something random or whining about my life. But please keep up-to-date with the other one, I'll try to make it interesting and worthwhile. I would love to eventually become a famous member of the blogosphere, so once you feel I'm ready to be viral marketed, tell all your friends.
And that is all, goodnight!
So the fact that it's Halloween means that October is at end.
For anyone who was curious I managed to complete my goals for the month. I didn't eat fast food, I payed off my credit cards, and I did not spend any money on electronics. Because of the amount of credit cards that I had to pay off I still have not much in my bank account, but I get paid on Friday, so hopefully that will change. =)
Also for those of you who wondered, I did my speech on the mental benefits of doing crossword puzzles, so I guess Ryan won because his ideas inspired me to that topic.
Right.
So my goals for November are these:
1) Make a budget and start living by it.
2) Get all of my Christmas shopping done.
3) Go to the gym three days a week. (As of today I am officially a member of Bally's)
4) Write one blog entry a day on my new blog
Now I don't want anyone to get upset that I'm leaving you all here on Livejournal and making it more difficult to read my blog. I know I won't be showing up on your friends page and you'll have to click a whole new link and stuff, but you'll survive. The reasons I am going to wordpress is that it has better interface, design, and all that stuff. And it's more mature, professional, and adultish (maybe I shouldn't be going there if I say "adultish"). But anyway... yeah. I might still log on here from time to time when I feel like writing something random or whining about my life. But please keep up-to-date with the other one, I'll try to make it interesting and worthwhile. I would love to eventually become a famous member of the blogosphere, so once you feel I'm ready to be viral marketed, tell all your friends.
And that is all, goodnight!
I need a specific topic that I can inform people on for three to four minutes for a speech in my public speaking class... any suggestions?
So last night I went to Ikea and bought a couple desks to make an L shape type thing for my workspace. (Haha, I said work.) I like how it turned out a lot, so here are some pictures of what it looks like:
Note the red Swingline stapler, the glass of Pepsi resting on the cd coaster, the Dundie Award, Dwight Schrute bobblehead, and mini Master Chief action figure. (Note, he is actually a collectable figurine, he does not do any action... except that his right foot moves and makes him fall over far too often.)
I don't think I have anything else to add to that.
Note the red Swingline stapler, the glass of Pepsi resting on the cd coaster, the Dundie Award, Dwight Schrute bobblehead, and mini Master Chief action figure. (Note, he is actually a collectable figurine, he does not do any action... except that his right foot moves and makes him fall over far too often.)
I don't think I have anything else to add to that.
So I was organizing, rearranging, alphabetizing, and throwing out stuff and I ran across this... something, that I wrote sometime last semester, and I don't think I ever posted it, and I kind of like it, so here you go (run on sentences for the win):
I am running blindly, wildly, flailing my arms, just in case you didn't get the picture. I am running to nothing from everything wholly wondering where I'm going. I'm living lightly, on my toes in a ballet, dancing without knowing the steps. Lost in metaphors beyond imagination, like a simile that's not quite understood. I try to sound intelligent, knowledgeable, resilient, so much more than skin deep. As I run I fall, I slipped, I trip, a flip and I land on my feet, wondering why my bones are all intact. I look at my compass and run from the arrow, I hear there are answers to the south.
And I don't want to grow up, but Ican't wait for the day that I discover where I am and find out where I'm going. But I don't know. I am the sum total of every song I tried to cry to, conditioned to feel without understanding, trained to understand with no feeling. I've been taught to be ironic, I've learned to be a paradox. I'm drawn to what I hate and shun the things I love. I strive to be a genius, with the mind of a child. I try to be an original writer as I copy and compile everything I've seen, heard, and read.
I die a little bit inside everytime I take the chance to live. But is not every second spent alive living? Technically: yes. Romantically: no. I want to live in surrealism, slightly foggy; everything there but not quite understood. You make me smile. I'll hold you close, if that's what you want. I'll stay if that's what you need. We'll worry about tomorrow when it becomes today. Tonight, we'll live.
I don't particularly remember writing that, but I don't remember writing a lot of the things that I've written. As always when I go through my old writings and such I'm feeling a bit nostalgic. So, hooray nostalgia. I guess, haha.
Anyway...
yeah.
I am running blindly, wildly, flailing my arms, just in case you didn't get the picture. I am running to nothing from everything wholly wondering where I'm going. I'm living lightly, on my toes in a ballet, dancing without knowing the steps. Lost in metaphors beyond imagination, like a simile that's not quite understood. I try to sound intelligent, knowledgeable, resilient, so much more than skin deep. As I run I fall, I slipped, I trip, a flip and I land on my feet, wondering why my bones are all intact. I look at my compass and run from the arrow, I hear there are answers to the south.
And I don't want to grow up, but Ican't wait for the day that I discover where I am and find out where I'm going. But I don't know. I am the sum total of every song I tried to cry to, conditioned to feel without understanding, trained to understand with no feeling. I've been taught to be ironic, I've learned to be a paradox. I'm drawn to what I hate and shun the things I love. I strive to be a genius, with the mind of a child. I try to be an original writer as I copy and compile everything I've seen, heard, and read.
I die a little bit inside everytime I take the chance to live. But is not every second spent alive living? Technically: yes. Romantically: no. I want to live in surrealism, slightly foggy; everything there but not quite understood. You make me smile. I'll hold you close, if that's what you want. I'll stay if that's what you need. We'll worry about tomorrow when it becomes today. Tonight, we'll live.
I don't particularly remember writing that, but I don't remember writing a lot of the things that I've written. As always when I go through my old writings and such I'm feeling a bit nostalgic. So, hooray nostalgia. I guess, haha.
Anyway...
yeah.
To further procrastinate from doing my paper on The Iliad.
Goals for October:
1) Not go out for fast food at all the entire month. (Can I do it? I hope so, for the sake of my arteries and my wallet.)
2) Not buy any video games, movies, or any other electronical anything that I don't need.
3) Pay off my credit card bills.
Question: Should I have any more goals? If so, what should they be. =)
love
Goals for October:
1) Not go out for fast food at all the entire month. (Can I do it? I hope so, for the sake of my arteries and my wallet.)
2) Not buy any video games, movies, or any other electronical anything that I don't need.
3) Pay off my credit card bills.
Question: Should I have any more goals? If so, what should they be. =)
love
It is 5:25am and this is my second day in a row awake at this time. Having tried to get myself to wake up early in the past, I can, sadly, say that this is the farthest I've ever gotten before. Two days in a row. So we'll see if I can keep it up.
Yesterday, I also did 25 sit ups and 15 push ups, and I am so extremely more out of shape than I could have possibly imagined, it's terrible. I do, however, plan to start going to the gym in the morning sometime in the near future, I'm just waiting to hear back from my dad to see if I get a discount from his membership or something of that nature.
Yesterday I also did a crossword puzzle over breakfast, another thing I want to start doing daily. I feel that the day over all was a success. Work wasn't too bad, even when it was, I didn't let my self stress out about anything, and I was actually in a good mood all day.
Then school wasn't terrible either. In my Intro to Business class my professor decided to teach for the day, but I had also decided not to take out my notebook because he never gives notes. He did, however, give notes. I think that I learned more just listening him and looking up at the board than I would have otherwise, though, because a blank sheet of paper in front of me is one of the biggest distractions possible.
After that Nick and Richie came over for a little while to break in the Halo 3, so that was pretty fun. The graphics to the game are definitely better than the first two Halos. The gameplay is pretty much the same, but there's some awesome new weapons and vehicles that are a lot of fun. It was also nice to do something at the end of a long day that I really enjoy doing instead of just doing what I needed to do all day.
So all in all, I was awake about nineteen hours yesterday, and I slept about five hours last night. And now I'm going to do it all again, with just some different activities mixed.
Have a good day all.
Yesterday, I also did 25 sit ups and 15 push ups, and I am so extremely more out of shape than I could have possibly imagined, it's terrible. I do, however, plan to start going to the gym in the morning sometime in the near future, I'm just waiting to hear back from my dad to see if I get a discount from his membership or something of that nature.
Yesterday I also did a crossword puzzle over breakfast, another thing I want to start doing daily. I feel that the day over all was a success. Work wasn't too bad, even when it was, I didn't let my self stress out about anything, and I was actually in a good mood all day.
Then school wasn't terrible either. In my Intro to Business class my professor decided to teach for the day, but I had also decided not to take out my notebook because he never gives notes. He did, however, give notes. I think that I learned more just listening him and looking up at the board than I would have otherwise, though, because a blank sheet of paper in front of me is one of the biggest distractions possible.
After that Nick and Richie came over for a little while to break in the Halo 3, so that was pretty fun. The graphics to the game are definitely better than the first two Halos. The gameplay is pretty much the same, but there's some awesome new weapons and vehicles that are a lot of fun. It was also nice to do something at the end of a long day that I really enjoy doing instead of just doing what I needed to do all day.
So all in all, I was awake about nineteen hours yesterday, and I slept about five hours last night. And now I'm going to do it all again, with just some different activities mixed.
Have a good day all.
Why I want to grow up:
I was a cashier at work all night tonight.
And there was this really cute girl who came in.
She was skinny, but not terribly skinny, actually she had a pretty nice body. She was wearing green, mesh, Holy Trinity shorts. Her hair was dark and about shoulder length and she was very pretty.
I noticed her when she walked in.
I noticed her as she was browsing.
I noticed her as I rang her up.
When I rang her up she was smiling at me, and I smiled at her, and we like, connected for a second.
And then I gave her her change and told her to have a good night.
If I could go back in time I would have asked her or her number, or gave her mine, or something.
It was a perfect example of falling in love with a stranger, all while still being to shy to take a chance and try to make something happen.
I need to stop hiding inside myself and learn that the worst that could happen is that she'd say no.
Or pull a gun on me.
But the first one is much more likely.
So now I'm going to keep thinking about her.
So if any of you have a pretty brunette friend who went to Best Buy and was talking about her cute cashier Jon, then let me know... okay?
And there was this really cute girl who came in.
She was skinny, but not terribly skinny, actually she had a pretty nice body. She was wearing green, mesh, Holy Trinity shorts. Her hair was dark and about shoulder length and she was very pretty.
I noticed her when she walked in.
I noticed her as she was browsing.
I noticed her as I rang her up.
When I rang her up she was smiling at me, and I smiled at her, and we like, connected for a second.
And then I gave her her change and told her to have a good night.
If I could go back in time I would have asked her or her number, or gave her mine, or something.
It was a perfect example of falling in love with a stranger, all while still being to shy to take a chance and try to make something happen.
I need to stop hiding inside myself and learn that the worst that could happen is that she'd say no.
Or pull a gun on me.
But the first one is much more likely.
So now I'm going to keep thinking about her.
So if any of you have a pretty brunette friend who went to Best Buy and was talking about her cute cashier Jon, then let me know... okay?
Today I decided to be a better person, and do something about all the stuff I whine about, and make my life more enjoyable, so this is what I did in three out of my four classes today. I probably would have done it in four out of four, but I didn't think about it until the second one, ha ha. =)
It's really long, so you don't have to read all of them, or any of them for that matter.
9/24/07
Today I don't really care about school. A lot of days I don't really care about school. Today
I want to focus on myself, look inside myself, learn how to better myself.
A Declaration of Shoulds
I should start waking up early every day, even weekends.
I should start writing something every day.
I should start working out.
I should start meditating.
I should learn how to actually play the guitar.
I should start to budget my time.
I should start to budget my money.
I should start to care about myself less and others more.
I should start to care about myself and others more.
I should start to eat healthier foods.
I should train myself to enjoy foods that I don't like.
I should find a way to go and meet new people.
I should get less stressed out about work.
I should get less stressed out about school.
I should stop worrying about my life.
I should read more.
I should play more video games.
I should do nothing less.
I should take more pictures.
I should film more videos.
I should make a documentary on a day in someone's life.
I should travel more.
I should take more vacations.
I should memorize poetry.
I should make a time frame in which I will start doing these things.
I should stop procrastinating.
I should talk to strangers.
I should complain less.
I should clean my room once a week.
I should text message more.
I should make more phone calls.
I should reconnect with old friends.
I should stop spending money.
I should start riding a bike instead of driving.
I should start walking more.
I should host parties.
I should be more creative.
I should do crossword puzzles daily.
I should start pulling pranks.
I should smile more.
I should iron my clothes before I go out.
I should spend more time with my friends.
I should ask more questions.
I should answer more questions.
I should go sky diving.
I should go mountain climbing.
I should go on adventures.
I should analyze tv, movies, music, and books.
I should annotate AIM conversations.
I should write more poetry.
I should take a dancing class.
I should learn more words.
I should fear less.
I should risk more.
I should study more.
I should talk more.
I should listen more.
I should ignore less.
I should write down something I've learned every day.
I should use more metaphors.
I should use more similes.
I should use more imagery.
I should think before I speak.
I should remember more.
I should ask for more names.
I should introduce more people.
I should learn a new language.
I should find the box, think in it for a little while, then think myself out.
I should spend more time being silly.
I should spend more time being serious.
I should do more math problems.
I should be more specific.
I should be more abstract.
I should be more open-minded.
I should be more grounded.
I should study more religions.
I should interview people.
I should get a tattoo.
I should drive faster.
I should hurry less.
I should quote more.
I should say something profound every day.
I should break more laws.
I should exercise my rights.
I should know my rights.
I should recite my own rights if I were to be arrested.
I should drink more, in moderation.
I should learn to cook.
I should learn to sew.
I should care more.
I should save more money.
I should invest.
I should make a business plan.
I should volunteer more.
I should love more.
I should hate less.
I should dream less.
I should plan more.
I should grow plants.
I should streamline my life.
I should eliminate excess stuff.
I should enjoy more.
I should relax more.
I should make more lists.
I should burn books.
I should make declarations.
I should wear "Hello, My Name is..." tags every day.
I should change lives.
I should build more.
I should play more.
I should fall more.
I should style my hair.
I should respect more.
I should spend more time in nature.
I should watch birds.
I should fight more.
I should think more logically.
I should defend myself without getting defensive.
I should play hide and seek.
I should play more sports.
I should practice more.
I should start testing fire alarms.
I should only apologize when I'm actually sorry.
I should vote.
I should know about the candidates.
I should know who my local government officials are.
I should doodle more.
I should doodle with purpose.
I should shake more hands.
I should read palms.
I should gamble more.
I should carry change for any possible combination that people could want.
I should do something new every day.
I should curse less.
I should fall in love with a stranger.
I should use public transportation.
I should give more presents.
I should acquire titles.
I should have goals and a way to get to them.
I should write down at least one mistake I've made each day.
I should admit to being wrong.
I should reward myself when I do well.
I should write down every good idea that I have.
I should hold doors open for more people.
I should ride more elevators.
I should ride in more airplanes.
I should take more initiative.
I should ski more.
I should learn to surf.
I should learn to snowboard.
I should climb more trees.
I should learn more equations.
I should grow more.
I should mow the lawn.
I should do more chores.
I should be a better son, brother, cousin, nephew, grandson, friend, and aquaintance.
I should flirt more.
I should take more notes.
I should pass more notes.
I should strive for world peace.
I should give out prizes.
I should treat people to dinner.
I should cook people dinner.
I should do more experiments.
I should focus more.
I should let myself be distracted more.
I should do my best.
I should push myself every day.
I should strive for greatness.
I should have a business card.
I should choose a super power, and have it.
I should recomend things I enjoy to my friends and family.
I should use mroe colors.
I should write movie reviews.
I should study blueprints.
I should meet doctors, lawyers, engineers, architects, politicians, anyone with a prestigious
sounding title.
I should count more ceiling tiles.
I should make more sense.
I should have more patience.
I should be less easily bored.
I should be more eager.
I should use more pencils.
I should use more pens.
I should type more.
I should go base jumping.
I should think like a child.
I should think like an old person.
I should wear a watch.
I should tell more jokes.
I should observe more.
I should have better posture.
I should yawn less.
I should have more scars.
I should tell more stories.
I should change all these shoulds to wills.
It's really long, so you don't have to read all of them, or any of them for that matter.
9/24/07
Today I don't really care about school. A lot of days I don't really care about school. Today
I want to focus on myself, look inside myself, learn how to better myself.
A Declaration of Shoulds
I should start waking up early every day, even weekends.
I should start writing something every day.
I should start working out.
I should start meditating.
I should learn how to actually play the guitar.
I should start to budget my time.
I should start to budget my money.
I should start to care about myself less and others more.
I should start to care about myself and others more.
I should start to eat healthier foods.
I should train myself to enjoy foods that I don't like.
I should find a way to go and meet new people.
I should get less stressed out about work.
I should get less stressed out about school.
I should stop worrying about my life.
I should read more.
I should play more video games.
I should do nothing less.
I should take more pictures.
I should film more videos.
I should make a documentary on a day in someone's life.
I should travel more.
I should take more vacations.
I should memorize poetry.
I should make a time frame in which I will start doing these things.
I should stop procrastinating.
I should talk to strangers.
I should complain less.
I should clean my room once a week.
I should text message more.
I should make more phone calls.
I should reconnect with old friends.
I should stop spending money.
I should start riding a bike instead of driving.
I should start walking more.
I should host parties.
I should be more creative.
I should do crossword puzzles daily.
I should start pulling pranks.
I should smile more.
I should iron my clothes before I go out.
I should spend more time with my friends.
I should ask more questions.
I should answer more questions.
I should go sky diving.
I should go mountain climbing.
I should go on adventures.
I should analyze tv, movies, music, and books.
I should annotate AIM conversations.
I should write more poetry.
I should take a dancing class.
I should learn more words.
I should fear less.
I should risk more.
I should study more.
I should talk more.
I should listen more.
I should ignore less.
I should write down something I've learned every day.
I should use more metaphors.
I should use more similes.
I should use more imagery.
I should think before I speak.
I should remember more.
I should ask for more names.
I should introduce more people.
I should learn a new language.
I should find the box, think in it for a little while, then think myself out.
I should spend more time being silly.
I should spend more time being serious.
I should do more math problems.
I should be more specific.
I should be more abstract.
I should be more open-minded.
I should be more grounded.
I should study more religions.
I should interview people.
I should get a tattoo.
I should drive faster.
I should hurry less.
I should quote more.
I should say something profound every day.
I should break more laws.
I should exercise my rights.
I should know my rights.
I should recite my own rights if I were to be arrested.
I should drink more, in moderation.
I should learn to cook.
I should learn to sew.
I should care more.
I should save more money.
I should invest.
I should make a business plan.
I should volunteer more.
I should love more.
I should hate less.
I should dream less.
I should plan more.
I should grow plants.
I should streamline my life.
I should eliminate excess stuff.
I should enjoy more.
I should relax more.
I should make more lists.
I should burn books.
I should make declarations.
I should wear "Hello, My Name is..." tags every day.
I should change lives.
I should build more.
I should play more.
I should fall more.
I should style my hair.
I should respect more.
I should spend more time in nature.
I should watch birds.
I should fight more.
I should think more logically.
I should defend myself without getting defensive.
I should play hide and seek.
I should play more sports.
I should practice more.
I should start testing fire alarms.
I should only apologize when I'm actually sorry.
I should vote.
I should know about the candidates.
I should know who my local government officials are.
I should doodle more.
I should doodle with purpose.
I should shake more hands.
I should read palms.
I should gamble more.
I should carry change for any possible combination that people could want.
I should do something new every day.
I should curse less.
I should fall in love with a stranger.
I should use public transportation.
I should give more presents.
I should acquire titles.
I should have goals and a way to get to them.
I should write down at least one mistake I've made each day.
I should admit to being wrong.
I should reward myself when I do well.
I should write down every good idea that I have.
I should hold doors open for more people.
I should ride more elevators.
I should ride in more airplanes.
I should take more initiative.
I should ski more.
I should learn to surf.
I should learn to snowboard.
I should climb more trees.
I should learn more equations.
I should grow more.
I should mow the lawn.
I should do more chores.
I should be a better son, brother, cousin, nephew, grandson, friend, and aquaintance.
I should flirt more.
I should take more notes.
I should pass more notes.
I should strive for world peace.
I should give out prizes.
I should treat people to dinner.
I should cook people dinner.
I should do more experiments.
I should focus more.
I should let myself be distracted more.
I should do my best.
I should push myself every day.
I should strive for greatness.
I should have a business card.
I should choose a super power, and have it.
I should recomend things I enjoy to my friends and family.
I should use mroe colors.
I should write movie reviews.
I should study blueprints.
I should meet doctors, lawyers, engineers, architects, politicians, anyone with a prestigious
sounding title.
I should count more ceiling tiles.
I should make more sense.
I should have more patience.
I should be less easily bored.
I should be more eager.
I should use more pencils.
I should use more pens.
I should type more.
I should go base jumping.
I should think like a child.
I should think like an old person.
I should wear a watch.
I should tell more jokes.
I should observe more.
I should have better posture.
I should yawn less.
I should have more scars.
I should tell more stories.
I should change all these shoulds to wills.
Current Music: Faint - Linkin Park
Today I did absolutely nothing.
I wish I could do that every day.
I wish I could do that every day.
I am breathing...
Posted on 2007.09.23 at 10:55Current Location: My Bedroom, USA
Current Music: Kate Nash
I am faceless.
I am empty.
I am not unique.
I blend in.
I am afraid.
I am tired.
I am sick.
I am lost.
I am lonely.
I am a collection of memories that I can't even recall.
I am nothin short of ordinary.
I am lazy.
I am a procrastinator.
I am tasteless.
I am not classy.
I am not well dressed.
I am a dreamer.
I am not full of ideas.
I don't know what I want.
I want so much.
I want to time travel.
I want to sit at home and play video games and watch tv and movies.
I want to cuddle.
I am stumbling.
I am sober.
I should drink more.
I don't believe in myself.
I don't believe in anything.
I am self-absorbed.
I want to reach out to the world.
I want to make friends.
I want to meet people.
I want to retire.
I am purposeless.
I am drifting.
I am listless.
I am not beautiful.
I am a window to nothing.
I am a mirror.
I am a metaphor.
I am a simile.
I am a well thought out bad excuse for a human being.
I am not the one who thought it out.
I am tired of trying.
I don't want to give up.
I don't want anything more.
I don't have goals.
I don't have plans.
I work too much for money that I can't hold on to.
I spend all my money on things that I don't need and don't use.
I don't deserve to move up in the world.
I am not a leader.
I am not passionate.
I am not who you're looking for.
I want to be nothing more than everything that you're looking for.
I am complacent.
I am depressed.
I am content.
I am a liar.
I am apathetic.
I care too much.
Lately all these things have been coursing through my mind over and over and over, as I go to job interviews that I'm not qualified for and didn't get anyway, as I go to school which I hate and really don't know why I'm there other than to say I've been there. I am tired, and lonely, and generally not happy. And, yeah, that's it...
One last thing for the list:
I am a whiner.
I am empty.
I am not unique.
I blend in.
I am afraid.
I am tired.
I am sick.
I am lost.
I am lonely.
I am a collection of memories that I can't even recall.
I am nothin short of ordinary.
I am lazy.
I am a procrastinator.
I am tasteless.
I am not classy.
I am not well dressed.
I am a dreamer.
I am not full of ideas.
I don't know what I want.
I want so much.
I want to time travel.
I want to sit at home and play video games and watch tv and movies.
I want to cuddle.
I am stumbling.
I am sober.
I should drink more.
I don't believe in myself.
I don't believe in anything.
I am self-absorbed.
I want to reach out to the world.
I want to make friends.
I want to meet people.
I want to retire.
I am purposeless.
I am drifting.
I am listless.
I am not beautiful.
I am a window to nothing.
I am a mirror.
I am a metaphor.
I am a simile.
I am a well thought out bad excuse for a human being.
I am not the one who thought it out.
I am tired of trying.
I don't want to give up.
I don't want anything more.
I don't have goals.
I don't have plans.
I work too much for money that I can't hold on to.
I spend all my money on things that I don't need and don't use.
I don't deserve to move up in the world.
I am not a leader.
I am not passionate.
I am not who you're looking for.
I want to be nothing more than everything that you're looking for.
I am complacent.
I am depressed.
I am content.
I am a liar.
I am apathetic.
I care too much.
Lately all these things have been coursing through my mind over and over and over, as I go to job interviews that I'm not qualified for and didn't get anyway, as I go to school which I hate and really don't know why I'm there other than to say I've been there. I am tired, and lonely, and generally not happy. And, yeah, that's it...
One last thing for the list:
I am a whiner.